This quote is 100% me right now. Life throws curveballs. And I've learned to dunk them. Being miserable doesn't change anything. It just makes everything worse. And at one point a couple of weeks ago, I was done being miserable. I was done being belittled, and I was done being abused.
Long story short: You've all read about the shitty times I've went through in my marriage. So at one point shit hit the fan, and now we are separated. Still living in the same house, but he has his bedroom, and I have my rooms. It works pretty well - but I can't wait until the day the lease is up an I can move into my own place. At least we can communicate like human beings again. Well, that is if we talk. But we don't talk much. Which is ok.
As you can probably tell, I am currently not spending much time at home. Easy, since I work a lot lately (got promoted to a director position). When I'm not working, I'm probably working out. Running. Or I'm on the road. My car is my best buddy lately, and we go places. I think a lot while driving. Not sure if this is a good thing though.
So right now I'm sitting at a Starbucks in Bossier City, LA. I've spent the day with my friend's kids at a waterpark, just dropped them off again, and now finally taking the time to blog. Personal stuff. I owed you gys an update - and it doesn't hurt to sit down, breath, and reminisce about what actually happened.
People keep asking me if I will go back to Germany now. But right now, I won't. I don't have the power to give up everything again. Do you know how tough building a whole new life is? It drains you. Physically, and emotionally. I don't have the power to pack up again. I don't want to built a new home. I don't want to give up this job, and all the friends and coworkers I really really love. SO, for now, I will just stay in this little town in southern Arkansas. I will keep living this crazy life as an expat.
Let's see what the future holds.